Happy new year,
I’m sorry that you couldn’t be here this new year,
I never wanted to see it through without you being in it,
I been so lost without you,
How can I go from seeing you daily to never again!people say times a healer.. but I honestly don’t think it will ever be!
I thank you for being my best friend, my safety blanket and best of all my Nan.
I often think of all the laughs and good times we had, it makes me feel so warm inside but also so lost because I’m never going to have that again..
If I could love you all over again I would!
It happened so fast I find it all like a strange dream i blinked once and everything had changed..
I often close my eyes and picture being sat on the sofa thinking how lucky I was to have a Nan like you.
What I would do to have all the times with you again I miss everything Nan I miss you nagging me to eat, telling me you have chocolate in your handbag, phoning me and reminding me of my appointments, even miss emptying your bins and folding your washing I would give anything just to do them things one last time! I no your here with me I smell you all the time, I feel warm touch’s every now and then too, I will make sure in 2020 I become the grandson you wanted me to be I will follow through with my operations and I will make you proud just wish you could of been at the end of my journey with me I know you will be there I just won’t be able to see and touch you! But if I could have you there at the end of it with me I would but even better Nan I will do it for you! I love you forever and always nan xxxx
This candle was first lit on the 1st of January 2020 and will burn for 95 years 7 months and 13 days.